Just being me! (:

2010-10-13T07:51:00.001-07:00

Alright, since I've decided to finally move on..
I've decided to move on from this blog too!

This blog is too depressing. Seriously? If I have to use a blog to talk to someone seem pretty pathetic to me.
I hardly ever update it anyway. :/

I can be a real bitch sometimes. But well, I can't please everyone. And I don't expect everyone to please me either.

So, I'm just gonna use this last post and rant full force.
I'm just pretty glad I have friends to stay by me through thick and thin.

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I'm tired of masks.

I'm really glad Jing and I talked.
Cuz then, I wouldn't have to drag about thinking whether I should consider staying or not.
I totally agree with her.
What we are doing is REALLY childish.

If I had a fight with a friend, I'll NEVER pull another friend into it.
I mean, why must we get them involved?
The only reason I can think of is to get them on your side so they can hate me more. So that you won't feel insecure.
Well that's REEAAALLL mature, eh?
I don't know. Seems logical to me. :/

Anyway,
Say all the bad things you want about me.
Enough is enough.
I'm sick of all the 'I never said this'.
And the blur reactions when the truth comes out.
It's irritating. And disappointing.
Not once during this entire period have I said anything bad about you without adding a compliment after it.
Not once have I dragged the others and tell them about how bad you are as a friend or what. Or all the faults you had.
When they ask about you, I just say 'Oh. I'm not sure. Must be doing work? Haven't talked to them in awhile.'

The things that comes out of your mouth when a back is turned just shows what kind of a person you really are.

Like fuck it.

I'm getting out of this so called 'friendship'.

I don't need friends who talks bad about each other.
I don't need friends who doesn't help when one is in need.

Don't get the wrong idea. I'm just saying that we have our own differences and I finally know that now.
I accept that fact.
The fact that maybe we're just not meant to be that 'Real friends' the teachers told us we'll find after secondary school life.
I guess we can only be normal friends. Those that says 'hi-bye' to each other.
I apologize if the words I use above are really vulgar and insulting.
But well, it is a blog and I have every right to rant whatever I feel like here. Half the things here may not mean anything. It's just a spur of the moment thing.
If you don't like it then guess it's just another difference we have with with each other.

I'm sorry if your feelings are hurt. But mine was too.
I just want peace. That's all.

Shermaine, I hope you're reading this too.
I seriously don't know what you feel about me. I'd be lying if I said I didn't mean the 'I never liked you and never will' part.
Part of me did mean it. Well, not the never will part though. You can be a likable person at times.
But the only reason why I didn't like you was cuz of that whole during the Julian incident. When you first got him as your boyfriend. You gotta admit. You weren't exactly a what I'd call a great friend. I know its all in the past, but it was just an impression I couldn't get over.
And the things people told me about what you said about me. It just made the whole thing worse.
All I can say is that you're a nice person in front of me, but once my back is turned, all the stuff people told me just makes me feel all skeptical.

If you're innocent and what I'm saying is all a lie.. Then I sincerely apologize.
I'm just being truthful here.
I'm not here to create more tension. Just saying how I feel so that you won't go all 'What? Since when?' question marks all over.
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Yup! That's all.
I'm making peace! And I'm getting rid of all this negative air.
Start fresh with a new semester! (:

P.S: CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY!!!!!!! S.A.T.I.M! Can't wait to see you girls! *Hearts* :D

Backstabbing. It's pretty clear.

2010-09-27T01:02:00.000-07:00

For those who don't know what BACKSTABBING is... I took the liberty of getting a few examples from the net just for them. [:

back·stab (bkstb)

tr.v. back·stabbed, back·stab·bing, back·stabs

To attack (someone) unfairly, especially in an underhand, deceitful manner: "Some backstab each other and threaten to settle their differences with a punch" (Thomas Boswell).

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/backstabbing

backstabber (plural backstabbers)

A traitor or hypocrite, such as a co-worker or friend assumed trustworthy but who figuratively attacks when one's back is turned.

http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/backstabber

2. Backstabber

someone who acts like your friend, pretends they care about you then purposely continues to carry out actions that they know hurt you

continuing to sleep with someone you're in love with then calling you one of their 'best friends'

3. backstabber

A person who pretends to be a friend, but then betrays you

Trust No one!! life's full of backstabbers

http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=backstabber

Alright, there.
It's basically like a frienemy. Someone who pretends to be your friend but talks bad about you when your back is turned.

So don't act blur when you know you are a Backstabber.

2010-09-22T06:19:00.000-07:00

Justin, you BETTER not get together with her. NO.MATTER.WHAT.
(O__O)
I don't know what her little problem is. (=.=)ll

ANYWAY, on another note..
I CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW'S SATC MARATHON WITH THE GIRLS! WHEEEEHEEHEE~ XD

L4D2 is getting to me thanks to Nat. She got me to play with it in the first place. THANKS NAT! Hahax! its actually pretty fun. Well, the only reason why I agreed to play lan was cuz I thought it'd be a great way to bond with her and friends. And of course, maybe finally understand why guys like Josh is so into gaming. XD
And I some what understand. All the screaming and the yelling. And the adrenaline pumping through my veins! WHOO! \(^ o ^)/

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Hmm...
Some of my friends kept asking how L and I was.
But honestly, I have no idea.
I thought that phone call was the answer to all our problems. But apparently, it wasn't. Cuz the next day, it just went back to L practically looking as though I don't exist.
Maybe its just me, but even eye contact wasn't there. Just walk by. LoL.
Asked her out for lunch once, but boss was more important as usual.
Guess N was right. She's usually on the neutral party, but she could even tell that she's changed.
I reeeaaally don't know what to say. Cuz I honestly don't know what is going on.
For once, I actually see L in a whole new different angle. I've seen how she treats people she doesn't like. Like Rebecca. And I somewhat felt the sting of that treatment Rebecca got from her.
I'm not suaning her or anything. But I'm just saying what I feel cuz like I said. I don't know what is happening.
I thought the talk we had was fine. But all of a sudden, the next day. It was as though that talk never happened.
I did admit I was in the wrong, I started this whole thing. I apologized.
So.. What is happening?
Shyness? Ego?
I have got no idea.
You know how much ego I had to put aside (knowing how much I can be such a egomaniac), how much courage I have to bring out just to talk to you sometimes and pretend you're not even there cuz you don't even seem like you bother acknowledging me there?
It suddenly seems like a joke. Pretending everyday.
We could see that you're suddenly following her everywhere she goes. Listening to everything she says. Okay, maybe not suddenly. You've been doing that for years now.
I don't know. Cuz from what I can see, you're laughing and smiling a lot on the outside, but we both know, you're not fully happy.
Yeah, I know you have her to talk to everyday. But iszit enough?
All I want to know is that do I still have that best friend I knew and loved since sec 3? We used to talk about everything and anything with no problems together. Still there?
When you gave me that what seemed like an arrogant chuckle on thursday, I felt like. Whoa. That's her? Trust me. It sounded arrogant.
It seriously for once, made me feel. Like either it's just me or she changed.
I know saying that you changed will piss you off. But I haven't talked to you since that phone call. And seeing you in a 'Not-my-friend' perspective... Kinda natural to think so.
In your eyes, I may have changed, but I wouldn't know cuz well, we haven't talked in awhile.
Anyway, it's the holidays. I'm tired of 'busy with work'. 'Made plans with boss and the guys'.
Finally for once and for all, I just want to know if my best friend is still there. If not, I really want to move on. It's really tiring waiting for something to happen. Seriously.
Hanging on to something that's not there is really tiring.
So just drop me a message or something. Cuz I'm sure you don't wanna leave this hanging either.
You said you missed talking to me. I missed that too. So what is happening?
Tell me soon alright?
Oh. And to tell you honestly. I really really don't like S. You should know. You've known it even since secondary school. I don't like her. Never have, never will. We both just naturally don't like each other. So, I wouldn't really care if she hates me or not. Sorry, but I just want to know from YOU. How YOU feel. Not how SHE feels. Alright? If you need her approval of whether you should be friends with me or not, then okay. I have nothing else to say.
I'm tired of love-hate relationships. It's freakin' retarded. I need real friends.
I'm pretty sure you'll understand if I say that I seriously do not care about her. We back-stab each other all the time. And you were always in the middle. So what's the point of me caring about what she says when in the end, we will never be honest friends? So hopefully you'll tell me honestly how you feel.
Sorry if anything here offended you in any way. But it seems like the only way I can talk to you is here. And I have no idea if you actually read this. LoL.
So I just spill everything here hoping you'll reply.
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For the rest of you!
Wondering what's going on in my mind? My life?
Well since I haven't updated in awhile, I shall put it in summary! Hahax! XD

I have a group of IJ friends who are willing to be there for me. I meet up with them almost every week for some girl time. Meeting them tomorrow! CAN'T WAIT! XD
Kayak is tiring, may be quitting soon. Seriously cannot keep up. :/
I'm glad to have Nat in NYP to talk to almost everyday. We've known each other since sec 1, and I'm glad to have her as an awesome friend. LOVE YOU NAT! :D
Josh is awesome and I love him. We're getting into our 5th month together. (:
Guides are doing great. The juniors are improving tremendously. Proud of them.
Spending more time with my family. They're doing great. Just spent the night playing with lanterns with mom and Qalista.
Worrying about Qalista's upcoming PSLE.
Qaiser's been busy lately. 3rd year and all.
Gonna spend more time with the girls this holidays. Lots planned.
Justin and I have gotten closer as friends. THANKS FOR HELPING WITH THE HOUSE WORK JUSTIN! AND YOU TOO JOSH. Hahax! The strong men in my life. XD
Hmm.. Other than that, that's all!
The only stressing matters in life are Kayaking and L.
Hope to settle them soon.

OH! I LOVE THIS COLOOOUURRRR!!!! XD
See ya! (:

2010-09-10T08:42:00.000-07:00

Ohh~
So NOW you choose to blame me?
HAHAHAHAX! You're such a retard I swear.
It all happened LAST YEAR, SMALL GIRL!
You're DELIRIOUS!
Do you actually thought no one knew what happened between you 2?
HAH! J-O-K-E.

'I don't want to be friends with her anymore.'

Well, NEWS FLASH! We've never been friends since you started being a bitch last year.
WHAT.A.JOKE.

Seriously, stop acting cute. And grow up! Not physically, but mentally you doofus.
I can't be bothered with you.

Stop making other peoples life miserable can?

And don't start making up stories about how I back-stabbed you. You did it to yourself, man. Don't start making stuff up about how other people said I told your secrets to the world just to make me look bad. That's really immature of you. (Its not like you ever acted mature in the first place.) =.=

You thought I was your close friend? HAH! I thought you would grow up.
I guess we all can't be happy, huh?

STOP ASSUMING WITHOUT KNOWING BOTH SIDES OF THE STORY.
That's just stupid to keep assuming stuff. It only makes your life worse.
If you're not happy, come straight to me, COWARD.
I can't be bothered with retardedly emotional people.

Like I said. I know who my real friends are.
I can bet a lot. You don't.

And stop crying! GEEZ!

Real Friends

2010-09-06T07:35:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to know who my real friends are...

REAL FRIENDS are those who....
... I can totally relate to.
... are willing to sacrifice their time for me.
... will come up to me and say 'Hey! What's up!' when h/she sees me sitting alone.
... will never judge me when I make mistakes.
... never back-stabs another.
... will say 'Hey! Let's talk.' after a fight and in the end, forgives each other and life still goes back to normal.
... will ask 'Are you okay?' when they feel that something's wrong even if there isn't anything wrong in the first place.
... can make even the most awkward situation seem funny.
... won't mind sharing their stuff with you.
... are willing to offer you the comfort of their home when you run away from your own.
... will never walk pass you without smiling.
... will never think of ditching you.
... will make an effort to stay in your life when something goes wrong and never 'just shrug it off'.
... can keep secrets.
... stays with you through thick and thin.
... stands up for you when people talks bad about them.

I would do this for my friends. But REAL friends would do the same.
I'm starting to know who my real friends are. Do you?

2010-09-02T20:38:00.001-07:00

Hahahax! I'm actually tired of waiting. It's as good as not having a friend anymore.

"It takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it."

I'll just consider it destroyed.

On another note. 2 MORE WEEEEEEKKKKSSSSSSS!!!! :D
JIA YOU!

And I've been missing a lot of kayak training. ):

Okay, gonna meet Sarah now! :D

2010-08-27T08:13:00.000-07:00

MAN! I'm SOOoOoO DEPRESSED!
School starts on MONDAY! NooOoOoOo~ DX
I can't believe the YOG break has passed by SO FAST!
I hope the project thingy passes by even faster..
Omg.

Training is taking up A LOT of my time. D:

Oh! Tomorrow meeting Bridget to catch up alil and help her on her project. Hahax! miss her so much. (:
Can't wait!

And THANKS MANGAI! For getting the YOG tickets for me on wed. (:
Love you! :D
VACA!!!! *Hearts*

18th Birthday Plan!

2010-08-15T09:25:00.000-07:00

Hey!

Alright, as most of you already know..
TUESDAY, 17th AUGUST 2010 is MY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!! OH MY GAWD! SO EXCITING!!!! XD
So, I've made plans with some people to celebrate it with me this entire week!!!

Here's the plans so far.

Tuesday:
Morning - Training
Afternoon - Celebrate with Kayakers
Night - Celebrate with Family

Wednesday:
Morning - Training
Afternoon - Guides (Tentative)
Night - Celebrate with Jing, Yi Ning, Shirin, Atiqah, (Tentative: Sherms, Kim, Ain & Steph)

Thursday:
Morning - Training
Afternoon/Night - Celebrate with Jia Yong

Friday:
Morn/Aftn - Celebrate with Josh (Tentative)
Night - Celebrate with Sarah, Teresa, Iylia & Mangai

Saturday:
Morning - Training
Afternoon/Night - Free

Sunday:
Morning - Training (Tentative)
Afternoon/Night - Celebrate with Hector

Sad that most of my mornings are spent training.. But I've got to train hard to keep up with the team if I want to stay on.

My weekends are pretty free, so hope there will be people to fill up the spaces for me! (:

I seriously hope I'll be able to spend some time celebrating this special occasion with my best friends especially.
It's my first time celebrating it after so many years (Cuz usually this would have been the exam period, so no time to celebrate with friends..).
I'm not asking much. Just a nice meal together would be nice. I don't bother planning such big parties cuz it's just too much of a hassle.
Well, hopefully I'll get a response!
I'll be praying hard!

I wanna give a HUGE THANKS all those who are putting their time aside to celebrate my birthday with me! You people are the greatest and I really appreciate that! Love you all so much! See ya soon! :D

The up coming week is gonna be SUPER EXCITING!!!! CAN'T WAIT!!!! XD

Life is AWESOMEZZZ!

2010-08-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

Hey!

Life has been great!
Kayakers are all nuts I tell you! Hahax! Seriously can't wait to head to the beach with them this week and to the club next! YAY! My birthday is coming. It's so exciting! XD

Yes, work is still a heck load of stress, but nothing alil push won't help. I'll work extra hard the next semester I tell you! JIA YOU! I feel so motivated~! :D

Hmmm... I'm thinking of catching up with some of the IJ mates next week cuz they told Qalista they miss me. HAHAHAX! I miss them so much too! (x

Lets see.. Other than that. Lynn has still not talked to me. I guess she decided to drop this friendship. So, okay luh. Guess there goes 3 years down the drain.
From what I heard, she's not very happy. Mood has gotten worse lately. But oh wells. Its not like I don't want to talk to her, but it seems like she just chose not to.
Well, I shall just pray for her and hope she'll be alright.

Talked to Justin not too long ago. He seems happy. And confused. As usual. hahahax! Had a nice chat with him.

Had dinner with Alastair and the twins a few weeks back. They were crazy over inception. Which by the way. AN AWESOME MOVIE! Managed to watch with half the class! hahahax!

So far so good my life has been. I'm loving it! (: <3>

There's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words...

2010-07-20T09:03:00.000-07:00

Like what the great teachers of the past always say...
'It takes 2 hands to clap!'

Hahax! XD

I had a great time last night.
Training was so awesome! Managed to sprint a lot. Pushed myself to the limit! YEAH!
ONZ group FTW! \(^ o ^)/
I tell you, if Regine keeps pushing me without pushing herself, I am so gonna kill her luh! Hahax! But she's damn cute! XD
June is passing me all her mosquitoes, I swear!
OH! AND I LOST WEIGHT! WHOoOO~ XP

Spent 3hrs talking with ohemgee after that.
It was really great.
It's amazing to know someone who is really reasonable.
First time in my life I've met someone who knows how to solve a problem without hesitation. Like heads on!
He really knows what to do in different kinds of situation.
Though he can be really reliable, I already promised myself to never rely too much on a person. Not even family.
We talked a lot about the difference in gender and about how girls can be so mafan. We always let our emotions get the better of us.
A small thing can lead to a fight. And that fight can last FOREVER.
For guys, they can just forget it all in a day. They simply apologize and let bygones be bygones. A simple sorry and a handshake is all it takes to solve everything.
I wish girls can be like that. But no, instead, they decide to never let it go.
Ohemgee says that I'm like stuck in the middle; between both genders.
Well, I do understand both genders cuz they actually aren't difficult to read.
Girls are more complex and dramatic. (It's like built in their system or something.)
Guys are more simple and straightforward.
Having been through girl drama for the past 11 years is pretty tiring.
It gets so mundane.
Same thing all over again. But yet, you just learn to live with it.

I miss Cally Ng! Like OMG! Hahahax! She's definitely the best girlfriend I've ever had in my life. I love you! (:

After much thought, I've realized what to do.
Well, I doubt she bothers reading anything from this blog anyway, so I guess it's safe for me to say whatever I fell like here.

WARNING: Complex girl drama below. Guys, KEEP CLEAR!
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After much careful thought, I've decided to let it go.
Sending her a text to let her know that I'm willing to listen was the only reasonable way I could think of to start solving this problem between us.
24hrs had passed and still no reply.
The only reply I got was from the other person. She said she can talk anytime. Only that it's up to the other person. [Very nice of that person to reply me. And I really appreciate that. (:]

Well, since that's the case, then alright.
I've been brought up telling myself to always let it go.
I'm not sorry for spending a lot of my time with him. The only thing I'm sorry for is that my best friend claims that she dislikes me. And about all the bad things I've said through the net about her abandoning me. I do realize that I said all those hurtful things was cuz I was hurt. And I know that it's wrong to vent anger onto someone else.
I can understand why she dislikes me so much. But the only thing I can not understand is why didn't she say a word when she felt that something was wrong at the beginning? I honestly didn't realize till weeks later when I noticed she hardly ever even look at me.
Maybe she tried to tell me, but I was too busy in my own little world to notice?
I'm not sure.
But whatever the case is, I guess the only way to solve this is to simply; let it go.
I'm never the type to force anyone, not even my juniors to do something they don't want to do. And I'm not going to start now.
I also can never hate a person. Sure, I can say that I hate that person so much, but honestly speaking, I don't. Just because we don't share the same views does not give me a reason to hate them.

To me, she seems happier not talking to me. From the really (I seriously mean REALLY) loud laughter and talks she had just now in the room, I can tell she's happy.
Now I get why people always shush me when I'm talking. IJ girls are LOUD. Hahax! XD

Well, I'm content as long as I tried to make an effort to do something.
Ohemgee keeps telling me to go solve it.
But what can I do?
The last time I approached her, literally took me all day to master the courage to. But I got shunned pretty badly and all I got was a 'I don't hate you. I dislike you.' With a smile on her face.
I tried to arrange a meet up so that things can be cleared up, but guess she's not interested?
I shall just take it as a sign to back off.
Sometimes, it's best to leave a girl alone when she's pissed.

Either way, I'm tired and shall not brood about it anymore.
If she wants to talk, I'm still here willing to listen. Then maybe I can apologize properly.
Just hoped that she can be straightforward about it though.
It can be pretty irritating having to wait for a simple 'I want/don't want to talk to you.'
Like get it over and done with, you know?
Sighhh..
I just hope 3 years didn't go down the drain.

I shall hold on for a few more days. If there's still no reply, then I'll just take it as she's not interested and I'll just let it go.

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GUIDES TOMORROW! Can't wait! XD

I miss everyone

2010-07-08T17:30:00.000-07:00

I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ I miss IJ

But most of all, I MISS MY FRIENDS!!!!!

Okay, it's bad enough that I had to break down and cry cuz I miss all my secondary school life and my best friend practically 'ignores' me and treats me like a distant memory, but now I have so much assignments to worry about.
Apparently, videos are more important than me.
Anyway, poly life is suckish.
Not saying that my classmates are. I mean, they're still great and nice people! Talking to the girls can be pretty fun. Guys are more quiet with the exception of maybe 2.
I think it's suckish cuz I can't copy homework like the last time. HAHAHAHX! jkjk.
It's just that its so difficult! Stupid photoshop. So ma fan! DX
video editing is soooooo such a long process. But on the bright side, I'm getting used to animation fund! :D

Sighhhhhh.... I miss hugging girls and talking about anything and everything. I shall drop by my other friend's school soon. (:
I shall forget about how 'they' treat me for now. Apparently, from what I can see. They don't miss the rest as much as I do. I know. I suck. Like totally.
Oh wells.
So much for 'MUST MEET UP AT LEAST ONCE A MONTH AR!!'
Total BS, man...

Blahblahblah

2010-05-11T02:56:00.000-07:00

Hey all!
Yes! I'm finally posting! *GASP*! Take a picture! O:

ANYWAY, poly life has finally started for me. It's like what.. week 4 already? Pretty fast if you asked me.
We're given a heck load of tough assignments. Okay, thank God that the deadlines for the assignments are all evenly spread out. (:

Hmmm... Lets see..
Friends are awesome here. Though friendships are still in the mist of blooming, I hope I'll be able to foster them nicely.
What I can say about my class currently is that they are ALL FREAKIN' ANNOYINGLY INSANE! HAHAHAX! XD

We have the annoyingly cute people; Xian wen, Zheng feng, Germaine and Ayu. Every time I see them Zheng Feng and Xian wen will always jump and say 'OMGOMOMG! 6PACS 6 PACS!' The reason being is yes.. I have recently taken a liking to guys with 6 pacs.. WHAT! I think it's sexy! Hahahax! XP
Germaine is the sadistic funny one who can think of weird situations that are disturbingly funny. Did I mention that she's into sushi? :P *wink* Ayu is just the cute one that laughs at all the jokes.
SO ANYWAY! We also have the really hardcore imbah drawers; Irfan and Mabeline. They're way older than us. In their 20s. And really nice people. (:
We have the annoying gamer; Alton. He games A LOT. You'll see him either eating, or playing with his PSP/computer after lectures.
The really nice and quiet people; Nicole, Rachel, Alex and Wei Yang.
Then, there's the REAAALLLYYY annoyingly noisy people; Faizal, Joshua and Brian. They get on your nerves like seriously. But they are entertaining.
Finally, we have the annoyingly 'cool' and normal people; Shermaine and me! :D

They are all annoying in their own way, but yet, are interestingly fun individuals.
People like Josh is fun to hang out with. I can share certain secrets with him.
Not saying he is anywhere close to Lynn, but still, a great and reliable friend I can trust.

Lynn has been pretty busy. It's like I can feel this distance between us. And it's not because she's in a different class. Somehow I get the feeling, she's more busy entertaining her new friends/ classmates. Which is totally understandable. I mean, she's class I/C. and we all need to move on and make new friends in life. We'll be working with them for 3 years! hahax! Like Wow. Strange feeling, huh..
Anyway, a small misunderstanding managed to shake our friendship alil and that kinda scares me. Starting to hate that person even more. He's like SO IN DENIAL! That moron. =.=ll
The thing is that if it's a misunderstanding, LET IT GO! Don't need to make such a HUGE deal about it. Ignoring each other doesn't help.
But now that the misunderstanding has cleared, Sherms and I don't know if we should tell her if we feel that something's wrong.. Like that 'Better-to-just-pretend-you-don't-know-anything-and-shut-up-about-it' feeling, you know?
Sighhh... I feel pretty guilty for what happened. Thought I was helping.. I mean, since he's older, I thought he'd do the right thing! Not only did I piss Lynn off, everything just seemed so suckish! PMO, man... PMO.

But whatever luh! They're friends now. Lynn is busy, (Though I can't help but feel alil neglected. But I have to be understanding cuz her class seems tougher than mine..)
Life is like the usual pattern for me. Just without a best friend there to confide in.
Saturday is 'DOOMS DAY' for me.
And I have 3 assignments to complete.
WHOO~
(C5n*X%$ND#$N*&T$QRMEWZ

Thats all! Will post again soon? Hahax! XD

2010-03-12T07:57:00.001-08:00

The interview was a waste of time. I had to skip work JUST to go for an interview where the outcome is already decided by the interviewers.
There goes 20 bucks! GAH! Darn school... :/

Anyway, I've decided to head on to Nanyang Polytechnic!
Thank God I have such a great option here. Not all out there get to have the choice they want. Well, at least one of them. Heh..

And I just realized that Adam is the only one tagging on my blog! Seems damn pathetic sia! Hahahax! But THANKS ADAM! YOU ROCK! Hahax! XD

Now, where are the others? Must be working as usual.. :/

When the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie
That's amore
When the world seems to shine like you've had too much wine
That's amore
Bells will ring ting-a-ling-a-ling, ting-a-ling-a-ling
And you'll sing "Vita bella"
Hearts will play tippy-tippy-tay, tippy-tippy-tay
Like a gay tarantella

When the stars make you drool just like a pasta e fasul
That's amore
When you dance down the street with a cloud at your feet
You're in love
When you walk in a dream but you know you're not
Dreaming signore
Scusami, but you see, back in old Napoli
That's amore

Lucky Fella

When the stars make you drool just like a pasta e fasul)
That's amore
(When you dance down the street with a cloud at your feet
You're in love
When you walk in a dream but you know you're not
Dreaming signore
Scusami, but you see, back in old Napoli)
That's amore,(amore)
That's amore <3

2010-03-09T08:26:00.001-08:00

INTERVIEW AT TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC TOMORROW!!! OMG! WISH ME LUCK! *Crosses fingers*

2010-03-04T08:55:00.000-08:00

Pictures of you
Pictures of me.
Pictures of everything that
we used to be.

2010-02-12T02:06:00.000-08:00

Ever had that lonely feeling?
Where you live in a world full of hurt, sadness and misery..
So lonely that you just want to lay down, curled up and hugging your legs ever so tightly, feeling as though the world is so cold...
Feeling so vulnerable that you could just break even by the slightest touch...

Is there anyone listening?
Anyone?
Please... answer me.

Sometimes when there's no answer.
When the only thing you hear is the air growing deeper in silence..
All you can do is pray.
Pray cuz you feel that maybe there's still a ray of hope.
Hope that things will turn out for the better.
Pray that He will listen to you.
Cuz if you don't, that sad, terrifying feeling of being abandoned and alone will never stop teasing you.

So just close your eyes, open your heart and...
Pray.

PMS

2010-02-09T07:45:00.000-08:00

Hey! I've got just 3 words for you...

Pre Menstrual Stress.

Googled 'PMS' online and found some pretty hilarious stuff! XD

Oh yeah.. This is what I go through. PMS is no myth.

See ya! (:

DEAD

2010-02-04T19:30:00.000-08:00

I am dead.. FOR NOW.

Am just too lazy to post! Hahax! Well, you know me. Lazy as always. Hehe~ :P

So here's a quickie.

My posting results:
JAE, Information Technology @ RP
JPSAE, Animation @ NYP
(Obviously choosing NYP if my appeal doesn't go through for TP.)
All's not so bad in life! At least I got into a course I wanted. Even though it may not be entirely intentional.. Heheh~ ^^"
I've been weighing out the pros and cons in being in both courses. And NYP seems to be winning actually.
One of the major cons for TP is that the reason I want to go there is MAYBE because of this really nice guy I met not too long ago. But what can I say? It WAS just a crush. Stupid AJT. He's just too nice if you ask me. It's no wonder why so many juniors loved him so much the last time. Thank God I got over him. Risked being an idiot. Credit goes to Cally for teaching me the secrets of guy signals. She knows A LOT. XD

SO ANYWAY, working at Ichiban is sometimes a TORTURE. $5/hr SO isn't enough. People keep telling me that the newspaper stated $6/hr for this kinda work, but I don't know really.. Oh wells! Better than nothing.
I just need the money to pay off all my debts. :/
And according to my calculations, I should have enough to pay all my debts and have enough for a few months of allowance for poly! Yay me! (x

As of yesterday, 4th February 2010, Lynn and I have brought our relationship to a whole new level! I'm so proud of us! Yay! *Claps* :D
Hahax! Speaking of relationships, Gigi got a major shock therapy when we told her that we were dating! Hahahax! She was scratching her face giving off that 'Whats-wrong-with-the-world!?' aura. It was hilarious if you ask me. Hahahax! XD

Well, that's all for now! Gonna go blading with Lynn later. Just hope she managed to finish work on time. (:

See ya! <3>

2010-01-15T04:10:00.000-08:00

On this day, God wants you to know...

... that your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and melt all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. God loves you with the very air you breath, the very light that touches your skin, the very ground that supports you. Love is everywhere, - ...melt your barriers, and you will have love in abundance.

Can't say how much troubled I am feeling right now...
God's telling me to melt my barriers, but I'm just to afraid to.
Heh.. Think I'm turning into so much like my mom. Afraid to open up when I comes to love.
Sighh... Life seems to complicated when it comes to love and what nots..

Afraid of Love - Brutha
I've been asking myself this question over and over again (ho-ohh)
Is love the game that no matter how i try i'll never win? (ho-ohh)
It's like tryna write a love story but runnin out of ink in the pen
Suspense
Like a fairy tale beginning but you never find out how it ends (ho-ohh)
So i often wonder if i'll ever (ooh, if i'll ever find true love)
Like the sun has summer, rain has thunder (what am i afraid of?)

If i'm afraid to love
If i'm afraid of love
I wanna know
Cause if i'm afraid to love (afraid of love)
Then how will ever find the one?
How will i ever find the one?
The one (x2)
How will i ever find the one? (the one)

Tell me why is it far closer, then love get tapped, i run away? (heyy)
It's like standing in the mirror
When my reflection looks the other way (heyy)
Outside i'm smiling
But the truth is that i'm crying inside (i'm tryin)
It's like tryna write a perfect song
But i can't come up with the last line
(so i)
So i often wonder if i'll ever (ohh if i'll ever find true love)
Like the sun has summer, rain has thunder
What if i'm afraid to love?

If i'm afraid to love (if i'm afraid to love)
If i'm afraid of love (if i'm afraid of love)
Owhhh
Cause if i'm afraid of love (yeahhh)
Then how will i ever find the one (how will i find? how will i find?)
The one (x3)
How will i ever find the one?
Tell me, how will i ever find the one?
How will i ever find the one?
How will i ever find the one?...

He's just not that into you

2010-01-07T10:13:00.000-08:00

Hey!

Okay, so it's 2.13 in the morning and I just finished watching a rather interesting yet enlightening movie. 'He's just not that into you'
I get that quite a lot. I mean, okay. Maybe not a lot.. But I have my fair share.
I get the signs and signals. It's sometimes just not very hard. I mean, if he's into you, he'll make it happen. If he's not, who cares? It's not like he's the only guy on earth, right?

You see.. I've always been interested in what people do and think when they're around the opposite sex. You somehow experience the action, learn the signs.. You've got to admit! It is intriguing.

So anyway, today I went to 2 different polytechnic open houses. Ngee Ann and Nanyang. Totally different types of school.
Not only was I there to of course, check out the courses. But Lynn and I did a lil sight seeing.
Ngee Ann had quite a number of good looking guys but Nanyang? Not so much...
Not trying to brag or anything, but all we got were a few groups of ranging hormonal teenage boys ogling and checking us out like savages while having lunch. Kinda sad, but oh wells!

I've actually accepted the fact that hot and cute guys. Are just not that into me.
Sad. But it's a truth I'll accept.
Sometimes, you just gotta appreciate what life throws at you.
It may be a guy who's not exactly charming nor good looking, but who is a loving, caring and would do ANYTHING cuz he loves you kinda guy.
Or it could be
A charming, dead gorgeous guy who'd sleep around with every woman he gets, including your mom.

The day that I hear someone say 'My husband is dead gorgeous, a loving and caring father and he has never cheated on me. Not once.' (And everyone agrees to that statement) will be the day Michael Jackson does his last concert on stage.

Here's a lil game:
There are 4 categories
Smart,
Sexy,
Funny,
Cute.
Choose 2 that best describes the person you like. It says a lot about that person.

Well, that's all I guess. Too tired to think of what else to say. Am just typing out whatever I feel like. That's why this post may seem alil some what out of point at certain areas. And I apologize.

Nightzzz! XD

WORRRRRRRRRKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!

2009-12-28T07:47:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps!

Am finally working tomorrow! For SURE! WHOO~! Just called today! Ohohohoho~ :P

Okay, so! Today, basically spent the whole day entertaining Justin. He came over to learn how to make some Meringues! He wanted to make some for Colleen when she comes back from Malaysia. How sweet.. (:

First batch was a failure. Turned out really chewy. It's suppose to be like flaky. So, we had to make another batch! XD

So yeah.. That's about it I guess.. That guy is so FULL of nonsense!
Oh! And I earned 10 bucks for everything! Ohoho~ :P

That's all! See ya! :D

P.S: FREAK! I'm SO DEAD! I can't remember anything from the last training! DIEEEEE!!!! DX

2009-12-25T09:15:00.000-08:00

Hey!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

BACK!

2009-12-23T23:19:00.000-08:00

Hey!

YES! I'm back! There's so much to tell about Japan.
The service there was really top notch! They greet you and practically treat you like royalty. It was nice. (= w =)

The weather was freezing! Throughout the trip, I only wore 2 layers of clothing. Literally froze my ass off there! But I applied quite an amount of moisturizers so I managed. (:

Will be posting up photos soon! (:

See ya! :D

JAPAAAAAAANNNNNN!!!!

2009-12-15T08:13:00.000-08:00

Hey!

Okay. The guy thing. Don't take it all too seriously.
If you're a guy reading this now, and is wondering if you're part of my 'I hate men' group.
No, you are not. Most of the guys I stated in the previous post do not even read this blog. So yeah. Hahax! :P

Anyway~ I'm off to Japan in approximately, 3hrs 14 mins!!! Yay!!
I seriously CAN NOT WAIT!
JAPAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! I just love it there! Oh how I've missed it so much! It's already been 2 years since I last been there.. (:
JAPAN! NIPPON! JAPAN! *Thumbs up* :D
8 days of pure fun and adventure with NO ADULT SUPERVISION!
WHOOoooHOoooO~!!! \(^ o ^)/

I'm tight on budget, so sorry if I can't get you guys anything! ^^"

I'll be back... On 23rd December 2009! :D

See ya!

P.S: HOMER IS KING! \(^ o ^)/
___________________________

This is just for YOU, Lynn!

(Excuse the font if it seems non consistent.. Something's wrong with it.. :/)

Hey baby! :D

While I'm gone, (Even though it's just 8 days..) try not to kill yourself, kay!
I know it's been tough on you, but hang in there, alright?
I know I can be really drama and constantly coming to you for advice, but that's just one of the billion things why I appreciate and love you so much!
I'm sorry if I seem to disappear from time to time. But hey! You know that I always try my best to be there for you whenever you need me, right? All you have to do is just call or text me! I know it's hard sometimes to share certain stuff, but hey! What have we not shared? hahahax! You know I'm always open to ANYTHING!
*Wink* ;P

Just so you know, I think- No, I KNOW that you are totally AWESOME! :D
And you, yourself know deep DEEP down that it's true! Come on.. I'm sure you know that you rarely hear praises coming from an ego person like me, right? So be happy! hahahax! XP

Do you trust me or not? HUH?
OF COURSE YOU DO! .. You better! Or I'll sit on you next time! Wahahahax! XD

Anyway, remember! No matter what anyone else says, I! *Points at self* as YOUR BFFL (Best Friend For Life) will ALWAYS know that YOU *Points* are the most AWESOMEST, most BEAUTIFUL, and the most UNIQUELY WEIRDEST PANDA LOVING BEST FRIEND I will ever have! And I will LOVE YOU FOREVAAH!
I know that YOU! *points* will ALWAYS love me too! Cuz well, I'm just really AWESOME! *Thumbs up* :D
(Having a Deja Vu yet? XP)

So, who cares about what others say? You should care more about what the ones who loves you the most think. Cuz they know who you really are and they always tell the truth.
Stay strong, baby! And never demoralize yourself!
Hmm.. Think I should rub off more of my egoness onto you. It seems to be wearing off. Hahax! XD

So, Remember!
I love you~
You love me~
We are one hap-py fa-mi-ly~
BLEH. Hate this song. It's just damn gay. :/

WHEEEEE~

Just don't fry you brain! It's fried enough as it is already. :P

I'll text ya when I get back! Oh! And thanks so much for coming all this way to pass me the stuff! Love ya! *Muackzz* :D

P.S: I just need to get this out of my system before I leave...
LYNN!!! *Points* You DO SUCK! ... ... Good~ OHOHOHOOHO~ :P

P.P.S: And for the record, no matter what. You're a role model to me. There's just so many things that makes you such a great person. But you're just slow as usual to notice it yet. Don't worry! You'll get it soon enough. :P

_______________________________

___________________________

Douchebag

2009-12-14T03:14:00.000-08:00

Guys are generally such DISGUSTING DOUCHEBAGS!

No, Seriously. I'm not kidding.

No, It's not because they always think that they're better in everything or cuz of their bad habit of adjusting their balls..
It's because I just have bad luck in meeting the right ones. (If there are any..)

I've had it with them! I mean, COME ON!
I can seriously say that I am CURSED! Cursed for being a magnet that attracts WEIRD, SICK guys who thinks they're NORMAL. But in fact, they're actual, real life DOUCHEBAGS!

Many women would prefer to use the term 'Pigs' when it comes to men. But i beg to differ. You know why?

I know what you're thinking... 'Wow.. Hate is such a strong word to be using. Wonder what happened?'

Well, I'LL TELL YOU WHAT HAPPENED!
I have been through a lot of crappy situations, meeting crappy guys!
So much that I can practically come up with a book as to why it's okay to hate men!

1) I've met guys who only wanted SEX.
2) I've met really INSANE guys who thinks that they have their OWN WORLD! Like seriously! As in like...
Him: 'I'm going to the other world now. If you need anything, just tap me.'
*Takes out handphone and does weird scribbles on the screen with his thumb*
*Closes his eyes and tilts head down like sleeping position*
Me: Hokaaay~ *Looks around hoping that there isn't anybody in the MRT staring at us*
3) I've met guys who had fallen 'In Love' with me after 1 meeting. To an extent that they'll think that I'm 'The One'. (Meetings can be as short as only 5 hours).
They'd BLOG about how 'Perfect' I am and what not..

4) I've met a guy who kept ASKING me for kisses. He even looked onto Youtube to LEARN how to french kiss. The result? Imagine kissing a washing machine and the tsunami came in. No joke. Wasted 2 bottles of Listerine cuz of him. My mouth was numb for the rest of the night.

5) I've met guys who talked to me about WANKING themselves! SERIOUSLY GUYZ! Ever heard of TOO MUCH INFO?! It's as though I'd like to know what you do to yourself in the dark corner of a room and WHEN you do it. =.=ll
Yes, I do admit, it's okay as it's normal for guys to do it.. But you don't have to tell me EVERYTHING! WTF, MAN! Just say 'Yeah. I wank myself sometimes.' That'll just be about enough of info. But when you tell me WHEN and HOW you do it. That's just too much, man...
I've even got them talking to me about the different types of PORN in the world!
Gee.. Nice to know that you're so comfortable in talking to me about EVERYTHING.

6) Now, finally... This kind of guy I met recently. Well, not really recently. He was an ex. Nothing serious. (Thank God!) But after about 2 years, he suddenly decided to msn me. Men like HIM, are seriously why I can practically sum up the whole reason why I can hate men so much. They are a DISGRACE to ALL MANKIND.

Okay. What I learnt when I was younger, was that never to webcam a stranger. And to me, my ex wasn't really a stranger.
I admit that I have webcamed before with friends, and it was fun! We just showed each other our homework, model aeroplanes and stuffed toys.
It was all harmless.. Until HE webcamed me. =.=
This guy is SICK AND PERVERTED!
He started telling me how I've changed in looks. Then suddenly said that he was horny for some reason. Okay. I adviced that he should go drink some water or something. BUT NO! He decided to SHOW me how erected he was! Like WTF!
After that, he shifted the camera to his dick and was about to wank until I SLAMMED MY LAPTOP SHUT!
LIKE SERIOUSLY! WHAT A DOUCHEBAG!
It disgusted the heck outta me!
When I opened my laptop, he asked me if I could show myself in my bra. And I was like 'WHAT?! NO! Go to the net and find some picture or something!'
WTF, MAN! After awhile, he came onto some tissue.. (Yes, he told me.) =.=ll
I ignored him for awhile, then he felt bad and apologized. He also told me to
'Keep it between us'

SCREW LUH! Keep it between us? You can keep it to yourself and SHOVE IT UP YOUR FREAKIN' BALLS or if you'd like, YOUR EXTREMELY SMALL DICK!!! If I were a guy, I'd do this infront of you!

You just humiliated me and DEGRADED yourself at the same time! I felt so offended! Show myself in my BRA?! The only boobs you get to see and touch, are THESE!

YEAH! That's just for you, DOUCHEBAG! Yup! You can grab them all you like cuz you're now crowned the KING OF DOUCHEBAGS!

Hope you're happy cuz, MAN! I feel so sorry.. For you AND your SMALL DICK. Yes, I just LOVE to emphasize that you have a really small wiener. So what if you're ex told you that it was big? OF COURSE it was big to her. It's practically THE ONLY dick she saw in her LIFE! I can just say that my Dad's DEFINITELY bigger than yours! You've got no dignity. As a man, nor a person.
What a L-O-S-E-R!

I hope you and your small dick rot in loneliness cuz I'm pretty sure guys like you will NEVER find a proper woman to marry.
Because of you, I've OFFICIALLY HATE MEN!

Just to get things clear....

Okay.. MAYBE not totally hate...

Either way, it's the same...

Sighhh.. Okay. I think I've ranted just about enough for this post.
This the the last message I'm gonna end of with.

See ya!

I hate crushes! DX

2009-12-11T11:01:00.000-08:00

HeEEeeey YaAaaA! (Outkast) Hahax! Miss their whacky songs.. XD

So anyway~
Yes! It's 3.02 in the morning and I'm blogging!
It's either I've finally turned cuckoo or I'm just nocturnal now.
I'm gonna go with nocturnally cuckoo! *thumbs up* :D

Okay. Here's the real deal.
Last night, or rather about some 5 hours ago, I have developed a crush on somebody!
Yay.. Congrats!
blahblahblah..
WHATEVER!
It's those typical 'OMG!-He's-SO-cute-and-hot!-And-I-just-wanna-rip-his-shirt-out!' kinda feeling normal girls have..
You know.. Like when you see Taylor Lautner showing off his 8 pacs and killer abs in New Moon. *Swoon* o(= w =)o

AHEM! SO ANYWAY!
I-HATE-IT! To the CORE! I hate that feeling where you go crazy over the guy you just met! It just irritates me!
You have to go through this weird emotional feelings and stuff.. ee. YUCK.
I'll pass.
I mean, can you imagine?
After the fun conversation I had with him on the bus back home, I spent the next 15mins TALKING TO MYSELF.
Trying to get my mind straightened out. Saying stuff like 'OMG QARISSA! It was just a CONVERSATION! And come on! He wasn't even THAT good looking! I mean, COME ON!!! He's the kind of guy that will NEVER- I repeat.. NEVER like you!'
And I was using hand gestures while talking to myself.
People must think I'm NUTTS! D:

Like this person.. D:

At times, I admit.. Did bring God into 'our' little conversation... I was talking to Him about stuff like...
'Oh GOD! WHYYY?! Why must you bring such a good looking guy down here tonight?! And the opportunity to actually TALK to him? And see him LAUGH?! What were you THINKING, man?! DX'
And also stuff like...
'Okay. You and I both know that a guy like HIM will NEVER like me, right?
*Pause for 3secs* Right. So lets just drop it, kay? :D
*Pause for 5secs* I mean, COME ON!!!! DX' etcetcetc

Yes, it's extremely pathetic. I know! But what's a teenage girl to do? Sighhh...

After a good 15mins of self convincing arguments while walking home, I finally came to a conclusion to let the matter rest when I reached the front door of my house! (:

Other than the fact that I was obssessing on the mistakes I said during our conversation.. It wasn't too bad, I guess...
I CAN'T BELIEVE I SAID 'I just hate guys who are tall.' I SAID 'HATE GUYS WHO ARE TALL!!!!!' GAH!!!! DX
AND! Before he dropped off at Bishan (I was heading to Toa Payoh), our conversation ended off with WHY I WANTED TO JOIN THE ARMY LAST TIME!
WHY DID I SAY THAT?!!? OMG! And I said that it's fun to use those rifles and guns, that's why! :D

How effing EMBARRASSING WAS THAT?!?!! Someone.. PLEASE! Just kill me right now. After he alighted from the bus, I was stuck stonning out at the window thinking how cute his smile was and GOD! His buff body...
I'm disgusted with myself. UGH! DX
Whenever he laughed or smiled, I was SO CLOSE to BURYING MY FACE IN MY SEAT! But I kept my cool.. And looked the other direction whenever he did..
This is so embarrassing... Thank God Lynn wasn't there..

Oh wells! At least he didn't alight with a frown on his face! He laughed.. At the fact that I told him that I'm good at playing Crisis Core (Which I'm not. Really. It was a total lie. Sorry dude... But I AM good at playing The Jurassic Park! :D )

Hahahax! Yup! That was my 2hr crush story. XD
MAN! I put a good argument with myself sometimes.. :P

See ya! :D

P.S: No. I will NOT reveal who this secret 'crush' is. Only ONE person and I know. NO ONE ELSE IS TO KNOW... *Fades away* O__O

Update!

2009-12-08T08:43:00.000-08:00

Hey yo!

Just gonna update alil.
I am chilled.
My mom has been pretty nice lately. After all that ranting from the previous post, she somehow was more chilled and allowed me to have sleepovers and go out more often without telling me to bring Qalista along.
It was AWESOME!

But after a few days, I decided to take a chill pill and relax alil at home. Just the tv, some tea, a nice blanky and me! That's really nice.. (:

Okay! Thats all for now I guess.. Will update more on the next post. Still uploading some pics from my handphone. XD

P.S: Jia Yong! Thanks for the movies! :D

See ya! :D

Life is unfair.

2009-11-29T18:02:00.000-08:00

Okay, I am officially peeved right now! Life is so unfair! Kinda cliche coming from a teenager like me, but hey! I have a life, too kay!

Mom wants me to go home early in the morning to go buy Qalista's books from school.
Why can't the maid do it? Cuz it's MY responsibility. Apparently, its illegal to get the maid to follow her to get it or something. =.=
Since I'm all the way opposite from where my house is, in Singapore (West Coast), I'll have to take an hour journey home just to see 2 people exchange goods. Then, I'll be on my way. I'm super exhausted from all the all nighter with my cousins. So, am just gonna take my time alil. And besides, I can't reach Qalista. She's not picking up.

Okay, so you must be thinking. 'You're the big sister. Why can't you do it? You're so lazy.'
Well, that's not the point. The point is, my own mother is pissed off at me cuz I can't do this. But doesn't appreciate the fact that I have already done so much for Qalista. The way she described me through the text message was like as though I totally abandoned my own sister and never did anything for her or the family AT ALL.

Come on. I took the time off to bring her all the way to popular to buy her books, but the CC got rejected. Okay. Then mom had to buy on friday which was a public holiday. Can't help that. THE EMBARRASSMENT!
I finally had the time to clean the room and clear up all my school stuff. Did that in about 2 days. DONE.
Last night, I brought her out to watch a movie with my cousin and her friend. This isn't the first time I've brought her out with me on an outing with friends. It's like I'm a babysitter or something!
Even out on DATES I had to bring her along. Not all, but quite afew.

ALL THESE. I MUST DO. NOT the brother! OH NO! HE is ALWAYS in SCHOOL. 24/7. He's hardly at home. He hardly even holds a conversation with Qalista at home. He does talk to me and we have a conversation once in awhile, but thats when everyone is asleep.

When my CC got rejected, he was AT HOME 'studying'. When I got home, books were laying all over the table, TV was on, and I see him on the laptop, FACEBOOKING. And all I wanted was for him to come over to popular, which is by the way, just a 10min walk from home -- and try using his card. BUT NO! He's too busy.

Cleaning the house. It's always ME. During 'O' level period, mom was always bugging me. 'Can you clean up the house?', 'Can you clean the fish tank? Clear it!', 'Can you set up a site and sell all the things you don't want at home?', 'Can you BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH!'. ALL THESE INCLUDES BABYSITTING MY SISTER. Spend time with her, She's lonely. She's got no friends. (Apparently, she had a fight with her best friend who lives at the next block).
Now, I must entertain her. Well, I kinda understand that. She had no friends and it's kind boring at home. But what do you want me to do? When I'm at home, all I can do is freakin' watch TV with her! And it's not like I don't entertain or make her laugh at home! GAWD! What? Am I suppose to take 'Clown class'? Be an entertainer to my lil sis for the rest of my life??

When I go out with friends or cousins my age, I want it to be so that I can relax and not think about family stuff and gossip random things. Like a girls night out. WIthout having to worry about the little one running around or minding our language. Half the time, my friends and I talk about NC16 girl stuff and what nots. How am I suppose to do that with an 11yr old standing next to us?? I've also brought her friends out too sometimes.

My brother? NOT ONCE has he even brought her out. Like I said, He doesn't even hold a proper conversation with her at home. Let alone bring her out. School, exam, driving class. WHAT ABOUT ME?! Have I got no school? exams? remedials? HUH!?!!?!?!
Okay, not now, but when I HAD all that, I STILL HAVE TO LOOK AFTER HER. Mom's always saying. 'You're her sister. It's your responsibility to look after her. Spend time with her.' What about Qaiser? What happened to 'You're a brother. It's your responsibility to look after her. Spend time with her.' NO! NOT ONCE HAVE I HEARD THAT BEING SAID TO MY BROTHER.

Now, tell me. IS THIS FAIR?? huhHuhHUH?!?!??
Let me answer. NO!

Now, mom is gonna take off from work tomorrow to get the books. WTF? The books are like gold or on sale or something! MUST GET MUST GET. CANNOT RELY ON MAIDS TO GET IT! ONLY FAMILY MEMBERS!

RAAAAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!! DX
This makes me so mad! GAH!

... ...

Heck luh. Mom doesn't care anyway. Like she said. I'm so full of myself.
I am SUCH A HORRIBLE DAUGHTER. WORST one EVERRR..
MOMS! Watch out for me! WoOoO~ *Does lame ghost action*

She cares more about the baby in the family. Can't blame her. SEE I'M SO SOFT HEARTED! GAH! DX

This calls for a...

See ya! [:

Japanese guy who married his Nintendo DS. SAY WHAT??

2009-11-27T08:52:00.000-08:00

HEAR YE HEAR YE! Japanese guy marries his Nintendo DS!
SAY WHAT?!?!
Yeah! You heard me! He married his Nintendo DS!
WTF?! (O A O)

Never thought I would live to see this..
It's kinda interesting that there are men who reeaaally wants to get married. I mean, to an extent that if you can't get a woman, get a Nintendo DS instead! *thumbs up* :D

Well, at least it beats the guy who married his pillow. :/

Congrats to the happy couple! (:

This calls for a DOUBLE FACEPALM...

See ya! (:

Update!

2009-11-26T06:12:00.000-08:00

Hey!

FINALLY! An update! WHOoO~ \(^ o ^)/

Well, I know that some of you out there have been really bored ever since 'O's ended. And you guys are all blog hopping, searching for some excitement in life.
So, here it is! New blog name, new skin and new adventures of everyday happenings with yours awesomely! :D

Okayokay. So, 'O's has finally ended. THANK GOD! But man! It's really boring I must say..
Nothing seriously beats the times you spend with your insanely retarded friends in school.

Okay so here are the updates..
A few days right after the last paper, it was hectic!
We spent the next few days shopping and preparing for our Graduation Night! It was truly awesome. Held at The Hilton Hotel, 17 November 2009.

Sat at table 29. Some people wanted to sit with their friends, so they took our table. Partly our fault cuz we were late. :/

Food was awesome. Not only did it taste nice, they were served by a couple of cute waiters. hehe~.. What? I'm only human.. :P
(Note: The ball thingy in the center is not edible. It just gave out cool looking lights! :D)

Took pictures with a few teachers.
(Mrs Stella Kwan. Our beloved awesome Math teacher and former Form teacher. <3<3<3)

Mr Sam Lim aka His Highness. Our Art teacher.
Look at all the girls surrounding him.. We kept calling him out. Bet his table people were thinking 'Wah.. He's so popular with the girls.' XD

Mrs Lena Siau. Our ever patient and kind POA teacher. <3<3<3

Taking pictures in the toilet. The usual.. Hahahax! :P
(From left: Vivian, Me, Shirin, Yining)

The person who transformed the most that night is definitely SIN MIN!!! I mean.. Just check her out! Like W-O-W. She's so feminine! I'm so proud of her. (:

The event ended at about 10pm. But we all danced on the dance floor till 12+. That's 2hrs! Never danced so much in my entire life! WHOO! \(^ o ^)/
Mangai is the QUEEN of dancers there! She danced like crazy for 5 songs STRAIGHT! We were all exhausted half way, but not her! She just kept going! :D

After that, Lynn, Shermaine, Crystal, Yining, Sin Min and I walked back to our hotel room at Marriott Hotel. And I took pictures with Shermaine when she was preparing to sleep! XP

I knocked out at about 3am. It was embarrassing to find out the next day that I was SNORING! HAHAHAHX! And according to my friends, they said that I was practically COMPETING with Crystal! Kinda woke them up.. Whoopsie! Sorry guys.. ^^

Oh! Meet Sowa! Crystal's birthday present from Lynn and I. We passed it to her on the day of Graduation. The process of passing it to her was quite funny. XD
But sadly since she couldn't keep it dues to bed bugs in her room and mom's disapproval, Sowa is stuck living here with me. Hahax! Oh wells. It's quite cute. :3

The day before Prom (16 November 2009), Mrs Siau needed some help with the packing of goodie bags. So, a few of us volunteered! :D

We formed a line in the Bentink Room. I was in charge of arranging the stuff inside neatly and putting them onto the floor. Last person in the line. Look at all the boxes!
See the amplifier on the left? We used it to blast some music. It was quite fun! (:
Atiqah's barefooted. XD
(From left: Crystal, Siti, Atiqah and Lynn)

We packed exactly 440 bags altogether. 330 were for students.
Stuff inside had feminine wash, face mask, vitamins and some other samples. We took the extra samples home. :P
It was really fun!

See the joy on our faces?? Wheeee~ :D

The day after Graduation Night (18 November 2009) was Sarah's Birthday! She invited me and a few others to her party at Botak Jones (Toa Payoh). She looks so pretty. (:

I was really tired especially since I didn't catch much sleep after Grad night last night. I went home in the noon and fell asleep. Then left for the party an hour late at about 8pm. ^^"
Totally didn't have the mood. Felt quite bad as I was alil moody and anti-social that night. Sorry Sarah!

People included Audrey! :P

And BLACK! Mangai. Hahahax! XP

After everyone left, a few of us sat in a circle and started singing songs. I asked for Your Guardian Angel cuz it was the only full song that I know how to sing. :P

Had a sleepover at Sarah's that night. We watched a few episodes of Sex and the City and talked till about 4am. It was really fun. (:

Oh! Saw this sign while queueing up for our food. Seems funny. Hahahax! Think there's a typo there somewhere. XD

The day after Sarah's Birthday party, it was Girl Guides Senior Farewell in school! :D
(19 November 2009)
Had to rush home to bathe and change from Sarah's house. Luckily she doesn't live very far. :P

The graduating seniors sat infront of the stage with slurpies and a bowl of popcorn in the hall.

Performance by the juniors were awesome and greatly done. (:

Group picture! :D

I'm so proud of all my juniors. They are such wonderful girls. Love them so much! Best farewell EVERRRR! <3<3<3

A few days later (22 November 2009), went to the Hello Kitty Lab Exhibition at expo with my mom and lil sis! WHOO! HELLO KITTY!!!! KYAAAH~!!
\(^ w ^)/

The exhibition basically is where you play some game to create your own Hello Kitty character.
This is one of the Game Station.

Me with bear! Damn cute! :3

I went to Kitty College! Hehe~ :P

Couldn't resist taking pictures of all these damn cute characters! X3

Aww! Poor bear got injured!
Outside the Strawberry Hospital.

Handicapped parking lot. XD

Phone booth. :D

I wasn't the only one taking pictures! My lil sis joined in too! :D
Us outside the Police Station! The people working inside had cute police uniforms! Didn't take pictures though.. Sad.. ):

My mom had fun too! :D

Hehe~ Whheee~ XD

See! My mom likes to pose in pictures too! :D

Bear painting. And my mom! :D

Our Hello Kitty Character Cards!
(From left: Mine, Lil sis, Mom)

Well, that's about it so far! Will update soon. This is kinda a lot for an update since my last post on September. :P

See ya! :D

P.S: Hello Kitty is NOT gay.